Meditation

Meditation is a fine-tuning device where we sit still and we tune and tune and tune until we get the most clear and still station which is your soul......

Thinking

I am the type of person who thinks too much, analyses too much..plans too much. Sometimes I should just relax my mind and leave things to God. So mentally exhausting. Need to totally detox all these bad thoughts.

I guess I am the type also who dislikes change and like to be in the comfort zone no matter how bad the comfort zone can be. I had already hated this relationship from the start and at the back of my mid, I already knew that this r/s is not suitable for me at all. Yet I stayed on cos of the comfort zone and also cos I am not the type who likes to initiate breakup. So I kinda self-sabotage this r/s throughtout the yrs , maying subconsciously hoping that I can get rid of it. Yeah..how dumb...just cos I am weak and not firm in my decisions and also too soft hearted. Sometimes I dun really care about my needs as long as things are convenient which I think really cause me to waste so much of my precious time and so many years of my precious youth.

So I had better stick to what I truly want and be brave to pursue what I really truly want out of my life. I need to be brave...feel the fear but do it anywhere. I need to think of my own needs for a change from now onwards. Stop being a doormat. Stop tolerating so as to stay in the comfort zone. Start living the life tat I want and be with the people I wanna be with. Dun ever force myself anymore for the sake of convenience.

Start living and enjoying life on my own terms from now onwards no matter what others say. They can say what thsy like....this is my life after all. Peace.