I have changed. No doubt about it. I have changed even beyond my own recognition. I feel like I have suddenly woken up and wondering why I did all that I did.
I used to do things that I feel like doing. Now I do things that I should do. See the difference. It is getting so agonising. I have totally neglected myself and my own needs. Why did I do that to myself. Now that I have 'woken' up, I really cannot comprehend how I could have just done everything that I SHOULD do like a robot. How could I make myself a robot and went through all the motions of doing things that I SHOULD, not giving a damn to how I felt about it? Even though I felt bad...I just tolerated and continued to do the things that are not beneficial to myself in the least. How to explain.......
From now on...I just follow my heart and listen to what it is telling me. I need to do things to make myself happy. I have to for my own well-being. I need to have my own life again.
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good for you. my sister was walked all over by her husband (master) for 13 years until she finally stood up for herself.
why not divorce this guy? staying in the relationship will just keep you in limbo, with a husband as a roommate you do not talk to.
divorcing, you are free to live your life as you wish, free to find real love.
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