New direction

I don't think that I am suffering from depression. I think that I am suffering more from boredom and a sense of aimlessness.

I guess I am sick of wandering around and going to all the same places and shopping and buying things that I don't need and as a result accumulating stuff and cluttering up the house. Sighzz...I guess it is no fun being aimless and wondering what to do with myself when I have the free time. Sianzzz n sighzz.......

Things to change:

-Teach my kid how to fish instead of giving him the fish. Let him learn independence and do things himself instead of relying on me. Let him handle his own emotions and mood instead of going to his rescue everytime. Get him to sleep n wake earlier. Also...help him develop his interests...give him the knowledge of the right values and morals and manners. I have to do this cos hubby would never do this.

-Quit telling my hubby to change his bad habits. He will not chnage no matter what I say. So leave him to do whatever he wants for himself.

-Have my own life again...don't rely on others to make me happy. I have to learn to be whole as a preson and follow my heart and make myself happy everyday.

-Learn to relax...de-stress......and start doing my yoga n exercise. Ten minutes a day minimum. Ideal is half hour a day.

-Start my day earlier and end the day earlier. Have to get used to this so might as well start now. Cos need to have a very early schedule soon.

-Eat better. Take better care of myself with healthier meals.

_develop my interests and hobbies. Things that interest me now that I can think of are......the internet....surfing....blogging(starting a blog on interests soon)...chatting with intelligent people....mahjong.....watching comedies.....listening to music..singing......learn photoshop....buying nice clothes.....taking cute pics.......

-have a purpose n passion which I dunno what.........yet.......no rush..slowly.....doesn't matter.