Insanely bored

I can't lie. I am insanely bored. Other than takig care of my kid, I really find my life meaningless and boring. I have somehow lost my direction as what to do with myself. I dun want to go on this way. It is really tough to live with boredom day in day out and I really have a problem with following the same routine everyday.

I dunno y. I dunno what to do . I somehow have lost interest in most things that I was interested in b4. Maybe I need new friends. Do new things. It is easier for me now to be stuck in a state of inertia than to DO something. Why have I given up on myself? To the point of depression. I dunno. Maybe I have lost hope...or lost interest. I have no idea other than I am freaking bored and I dunno wanna go with this boredom. I so uninterested in everything now. I have lost my zest, I can't believe it. I used to have so much enthusissm about everything. SO zestful. Now I can;t even bring myself to step out of this house. What is wrong with me?? I feel bored about everything. I have no energy for the smallest thing. I dun wanna believe that I have depression. I really think that it is my insanely boring lifestyle that is killing me. And the worst thing is I rather stay in this inaction than do somehting about it. I just dun care anymore. Sounds like depression.

I have lost interest in most things...I have to start somewhere if not I am really doomed. I have lost myself for the past decade. Do I really wanna carry on like this?

Let's list down somethings that I am still interested in:

1. My laptop. I think I can;t live without the internet these days.
2. Good healthy food. The biggest challenge in my life is to learn how to cook well and to LOVE cooking. Why do I bother. COs I think this is a very important life skill that a human being should possess. Cos all humans need to eat to survive.
3. Good TV programmes. Haha..I sound like a couch potato. Maybe I am..so what?
4.Music.Nice soothing positive music.
5.Looking young. I dun wanna grow old n fat. I wanna maintain my looks.
6. CHatting...I still love to chit chat with people.

That's about all for the moment.