Lifestyle Makeover

I have seen so many women ruin their lives just cos of all the emotional pain they have inside. This pain can kill....really. I wanna improve myself..I wanna be healed.

I need a lifestyle makeover. I need to improve myself from inside out. I need to let go of all this pain and be healed. I need to be hapy and to embrace life. I need to be kind again. I need to focus on my road to recovery.

Cannot go on like this. I have to really let go and let others do what they want. Trying to control is like having no control. Worse. Anyway...I need to focus on myself first.

I need God. I need to trust in Him again. I need to put my faith in him again.
I feel so lost and amless without Him. I will walk out of this. And after I am out of this emotional turmoil..I will look back and be glad that I have survived.

Need to laugh and do things to make myself happy. There is no disappointment without expectation. I should ot expect too much from others ad just relax and be grateful and happy about all the things that I have.

I have to change my attitude. I have to change myself for the better. Not for others BUT for MYSELF. I need to do that for myself.

After chatting with her... I have come to realise how much I have changed over the years. How bitter and unhappy I have become. How cranky and grumpy I have become. And how self absorbed that I have become. I need to step out of this self made box and live for myself and be happy again and connect with others again.

I need God. So aimless and lost. I have to have faith in God and believe in His Will. Happy dayssssssssssssss................