I hate myself

I really hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself for not having the guts to follow my heart. For being too practical. For having such a high tolerance level. For giving in to unreasonable demands. For forcing things that can never be to be something that I want. For not listening to my body when it is overloaded with too much stress. For forcing myself over my own limits which are unhealthy for me. For not taking care of myself properly. For listeing and believing other people's destructive criticisms and n ot believing in myself. For no trusting myself at all. For allowing myself to be so stressed that I have OCD. For not giving myself a much deserved break. FOr being such an unrealistic perfectionist. For not having enough fun. For depriving myself of what makes me happy. For self sacrifing to the entent of ruining my own health. For not putting myself on my top priorities. For not being firm enough. For being too soft-hearted all the time. For being in denial of certain things. For believing in the wrong things. For turning myself into a robot. For allowing myself to be so checked out. For being so lonely and feeling so alone. For allowing this person to hurt me so deeply. FOr losing faith in the human race becos of one person. For sinking into depression and doing nothing much about it. For racing against time all the time. For not having enough faith in myself and in God. For not letting go of things I should have let go off a long time ago. For not doing things my way. For feeling all the unnecessary guilt. For all the unnecessary stress that I have allowed myself to go through.

From now on....I am going to be different in a good way. I will love myself from now on..........cos I wanna change .........