Reinventing myself

So fed up with my life now. So fed up with the people esp him. Sick of being stepped on and judged all the time. Sick of hearing the same nonsense from the same people. Sick and tired of everything. And this is not my hormones talking. Tired, exhausted and drained.

I need to reinvent myself, I need to be a new and improved. I need a new direction in my life. Some motivation to get going again. I cannot help but wonder ....is this all there is. I am too young to be living the life of retiree and see myself wasting away. See my phyisical body wasting away. I have not been taking good care of myself at all and it is showing signs all over.

Let's start with the physical. I have already changed my hair. I need to improve my diet, exercise, tone, take care of my face...reduce wrinkles, moisturise..get rid of black heads. And maitain my complexion again. I had not done that for the longest time. I have , sort of, given up on me. ANd all becos I am so depressed over this person. SO what if he is such a freaking jerk. Disregard him la. I have been too sad for too long already. Time to move on and LIVE my life. This is my life. I have free will. No one can take that away from me. I have to live my life according to what I want and think is right. Do not care about other people's judgements and criticisms and approval. They have no right to impose their irrational thinking me.

Then mental. I need to let go of all the hatred, grudges..whatever that is clouding my mind. Think positive. Laugh more.

Emotionally I need to love my kid more. Be more emotionless in other aspects. LIfe is happier if one is not emotionally too attached and learn not to be too emotional over everything.

Spiritually..there is God..........

Also...aim for financial independence..cos that will lead to physical independence.

From today I am changing myself and as a symbol of that..I am changing my name as well......................