My OCD is causing me unhappiness. And also my over indulgence in my routie and being inflexible. It is like I am living my kid's life with no interest of my own or life of my own. I have cut down on my own enjoyments so much. I seldom do fun things just for myself. I dun do things just to enjoy myself much anymore.
I always do things I SHOULD...never do things I WANNA.
My life is great. It really is...it is better ..much better now. Yet I still dun feel the happiness...nor any elation. Or feel mental freedom.
Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy????????????????????
Just look at me as an individual. No responsibilities and obligations. All those aside...I should be damn happy. Cos I have a good life now. Maybe I worry too much. I try to control too much. I care too much. I want things to be perfect too much.
Yeah..that is why...............
I have to change my mindset if I wanna be happy. I need to open up myself and my heart again. Dance as if no one is watching..love as if you have never been hurt.
I need to find that simplicity and that innocence in life again.
Life is great..BELIEVE IT................
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