Hurt no more.

I am tired. Very tired. You cannot imgaine how tired I feel at this moment. I am so mentally exhausted. Most of all ..my heart is tired. I just dun wanna feel hurt anymore. I dun wanna tread on eggshells anymore. What kind of a relationship is this? I always thought I DUN HAVE a choice. That I have to accept all the hurt and negativity. Now I feel..I do indeed have a choice. Why I I accept the hurt? Why should I be hurt over and over again? WHy why Why??? I am too sick and tired already. If this relationship is going to hurt so much...then I dun want it. Love should not hurt. It has hurt for far too long. That most trust and faith are gone.
It seems too fragile. Over small trivial stuff. I dun wanna explain myself anymore. I dun wanna think or analyse anymore. I dun wanna be emotional anymore. If it does not feel good...then forget it. I am too tired. Words canot describe how tired I am. Plus all the boredom. Sianz.

Give up..really given up. I need a life makeover. I need a lifestyle makeover. I need a new life. I need to shift my focus..I really do. I am enough. I rather be by myself than be with someone who hurts me all the time and has no reservations doing so. Sick of all the cruelty etc. Tired..extremely tired.

I need a rest. I need a break form all these emotional turmoil. A much needed rest.Love should be healthy. Healthy love. Positive energy.