I finally found it.

It hit me like a ton of bricks today. I have heard this a million times before. That it does not matter what happens..it is how you react to it that is important. I never thought much about that cos I really dun think that is going to be possible.

But I found it. I found the wisdom in those wordes. That it is REALLY how you react to a situation that is the key.

I have always wanted to find my purpose in my life. What I am here for...what will ultimately give me innerpeace and joy. I know what is my purpose now. I know it deep in my soul and I believe this is ultimately what is important to me.

That a day is productive, fruitful and purpose as long as I am happy that day and other people are happy around me because I am happy. No day is wasted as long as it is spent in happiness. I cannot control a lot of aspects in my life but I can feel happy irregardless.

From this day onwards....I PROMISE MYSELF THAT I DO NOT WANT TO SPEND ANOTHER DAY UNHAPPY. I AM GOING TO BE HAPPY EVERYDAY NO MATTER WHAT. EVEN PRETEND HAPPY IS BETTER THAN TO GIVE IN TO MY HORMONES AND BE UNHAPPY AND HURT OTHER PEOPLE AROUND ME AS A RESULT.

My goal from today onwards.......to be happy and bring happiness to others around me....bring joy not pain. I wanna be happy everyday no matter what happens. To be at peace everyday no matter what happens. This is my promise to myself.

I see so many people in this world hurt themselves, hurt others cos they are so unhappy inside. Most problems arise becos of unhappiness and discontentment. Pointless....... Just have to work at it......ultimately the meaning of life is just to feel happy every single day and influence others around to be positive and happy everyday.

You have to go though everyday..whether happy or sad...WHY NOT HAPPY??????

NEVER GIVE IN TO MY HORMONES AGAIN. I have to control my emotions not let my emotions control me. Sometimes it is really better to give than to receive. Lame but it's true.