Joy

I need joy in my life to stay healthy. Physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health depend on it. Joy..that is what I am lacking for the longest time. I have put all my needs last for so long that I have kinda forgotten what makes me happy. I have lost so much zest and interest in my life that it is getting really terrible. And I am exhausted, burnt out all the time which is not a good sign.

I need to inject more joy in my life, take care of myself first for my health's sake. I do not want cellular inflammation and get a chronic disease in the end. Not worth it. It is time to get some help. Assisted living. Yeah. I have to admit that I cannot do it all and control it all. I have to learn to get go and relax and destress and live life with joy, with zest and with hope.

I learnt today that there are three things that can make a person feel good.
1. Exercise. 2. Meditation. 3. Sex.

OK.......Got it.

This show is really a wake up call for me. IT confirms what I have been thinking of all this while. I really have too much guilt. Guilt to feel relaxation. Guilt to feel plaeasure. I only feel guiltless if I self-sacrifice? Now I know that this is really soooo stupid of me. I have to give myself permission to do things that make me feel good without the massive guilt.

I was an individual before I got married. We were a couple before having a kid. I was living my life before being a parent. Life is not just about kids and motherhood. Life is not just being bogged down by responsibilities and obligations. There is definitely more to life than that. Live life and have fun. FUN AND JOY.
Give myself permission to do these. Banish guilt. I can still be a responsible parent. I will take care of my kid better when I take care of myself first. I have to put mysef on the top priority. I have to take care of myself fist beforeI can give to others. I was so exhausted and burnt out cos I had not been meeting my own needs. I am experiencinf fatigue cos I have not been eating well or taking good care of myself. Not too late to start now. I am fortunate to ahve this wake up call early.

This is really the beginning of a new ME.
Lessons learnt.

Another thing.....Eat a good breakfast everyday. Exercise every morning and meditate every night. ANd have good sex often . Hehehe :)