Fun fun fun

Being a stay at home mum is the hardest job on earth. Really tough. Especially if you have a very difficult and problematic child. Who says a housewife's job is easy..it is never easy. You are on call 24/7. Who can stand it? Sigh...life is hard.

FUn. I miss it. I have forgotten how to have fun...I have forgotten how to live my life. My whole world is centred around my child. I have to let the focus be back on myself. I cannot go on living my life postponing having fun out of guilt cos taking good care of my kid is top priority. I have to have fun in the midst of this too. If not..I will be very unhappy and sink really deep into depression.

I need a change of my perspective and attitude towards this issue. I really cannot go on cancelling myself out and think that I DUN MATTER. I DO MATTER. I need to take good care of myself and that inculdes having fun without feeling guilty. I need this for my own well being.

I need to live my own life again. I need to know what excites me again. I need to know what I love to do again. I need to be ME again. Not just a mother.

I promise myself that I am on the road to recovery ...........and freedom.......