Life.......

Boredom and unhappiness can really deplete one's spirit and eat away at one's soul in life. You seemany people, beautiful, healthy, rich but they are in so much emotional pain that they become so unhappy and depressed and as a result , do destructive things to themselves and sabotage all their relationships and their lives.
Sighzzz.....see how powerful happiness is...when one is not happy, one will tend to make life really miserable for oneself.

And the surprising thing is even fithy rich, gorgeous looking, healthy fit individuals succumb to depression and self destruction. Maybe no mmore goals to fulfil, or nothing much more to look forward to in life. You always think when I am rich..I will be happy. WHen I have bigger breasts, I will be happy. We always want what we dun have. ANd we always want to be loved. Happiness seems to be something so far from our grasp. ALways..I will BE happy WHEN........... and when we get there , it will always be something else. Never satisfied, never contented, never happy.

Why cant we all just be happy now? Just be happy...no reasons. No need reasons. Sometimes one may think...I will be happy when I am loved by him....hmmm....why?
Cant just be happy , no strings attached? I cant understand the mentality of human beings. Why must things be so complicated. And why must people be afraid of boredom. I am bored, so what??? Must I frantically find something to do and fill the void? Something to excite and interest me? Is there a MUST? Purpose....some people are working so hard to find their purpose in life....is purpose really so important? So, I dunno why I am here...SO WHAT???
Do I need to beat myself up cos I have no goals, no purpose and bored all the time? SO WHAT IF in the eyes of other people , I am wasting my time? SO WHAT if THEY think I could be more productive with my time?
WHO R THEY to tell me how I live, what to want out of life, etc? SO WHAT if I just wanna do things just to enjoy myself and bum around each day? If I can afford to live like this....WHO IS ANYONE TO JUDGE ME? I live the way I like. I have free will to do whatever I want.
Keep all your opinions to yourself. I dun need anyone's approval for the way I live.
My existence counts just because I exist...nothing else. I dun have to prove to anyone that I am worthy cos of the THINGS I DO, WHAT I CAN CONTRIBUTE, etc. I dun have to 'raise' my own worthiness by doing more things approved by other people. NO NEED TO.
I am worthy just because I exist. I am enough just because I am. DUn give me all the crap about what the norm in life is...how pple SHOULD live.....WHY SHOULD I BE OTHER PPLE?? I just wanna be ME! DUn tell me what I SHOULD DO cos NORMAL PPLE DO THAT. SO WHAT if I dun do what NORMAL pple do?? Must I spend my entire life following the crowd and doing what they approve of??? We are individuals with individual brains. WHY must we FOLLOW what others do for the sake of being NORMAL??????
I believe in myself. I haven't believed in myself for a long time but I do believe in myself NOW. I have gained the trust in myself back. I am proud of myself irregardless of what u think or of what others think. I only care about what I think now. As long as I believe what is right...I dun NEED u to tell me I am wrong and make me feel guilty. It is not going to work on me anymore.
I am COMPLETE now, even without u. YOU DUN COMPLETE ME. I AM ALREADY COMPLETE WITHOUT U.
I AM HAPPY NOW. I AM AT PEACE...I REALLY AM. I do not wanna try to control anymore...I just TRUST that life can take care of itself.