Manage my moods

I need God.......He is my anchor in life. I cannot go on blind and aimless.

I cannot use hard on hard.

I must use the good qualities against all the bad stuff. Oh shit..wat am I writing?

I am simply too tired. Survived on 4 hours of sleep each nite for the past few nites. Sleep deprivation, thinking too much, under too much emotional stress...all these adding to my fatigue. Sighzzzzzz....

I read somewhere that u can damage ur nerve vessels when u r angry. I guess I muct have damaged a lot by now. Sigh...what am I doing? Why must I always react??

Learnt today that my mood swings are not my fault and that my moods dun define me.

Hmmm....ok...but I have to learn to manage my moods before they destroy me and all that I have. Yeah...my moods are that uncontrollable at times. Cos my triggers are all too powerful...I am really under a lot of emotional stress...........Arghhhhh.....

Cant get out. The triggers and stressors are still there and there are plenty of them.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... I have to be calm...maybe I should try mediatation? Om............................................??????? I dunno...cant think...I need sleep.

Arghhhhhhhh..... sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............

I need rest. Physical, mental and emotional rest.
I need plenty of rest. I need a time out from all emotional stressors. Arghhhhh.......